So, I'm not a fan of crying. I look quite hideous when I do and I feel like my face is inside-out. Sure, I cry often. Sad movies, when I'm really happy, laugh really hard, or when my heart gets touched by something or someone. Ha, Hallmark commercials. But these are teary-eyed, one single tear that I catch before it even leaves my eyelashes. Very rarely will I cry to a point where I can't talk. But I did that today... Haha Yup. I guess I am just a little emotionally unstable, but I can't really help it. I try, but it doesn't work. I don't remember the last time I was so full of emotion that I let go like that.
Trust me, if I could, I'd never cry- I'd always be happy.
I don't know how others are when they need to cry, but I prefer to do it alone. Somewhere people can't see me a total mess, see me unhappy, or get freaked out by how emotional I can actually get. But it really does feel great to have that shoulder to cry on. Especially when it's someone you'd thought you'd lost. It kinda gives you hope. Like, maybe, just maybe, things could go back to normal, and you won't have to adjust to a dramatic change. Maybe I'm not as alone as I thought.
Thank you. I needed that.
I just need to learn to not keep things bottled up. Maybe I'm stronger than I thought. Hmmm... That's good to know :)
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